Everything

 If you knew my pain

You wouldn’t tell me to be strong 

You would have no words

You would only have a silent nod and tears

Tears and tears

You would eventually say

“I understand if you want to go

I will let you

I won’t ask you to carry on”

You would understand that I am not the person you knew

That I am now less than half

That what I lost left deep black holes 

Tar black holes eating away at what’s left

You will know that when I smile, it’s hollow

When I laugh it’s empty

When I remember it hurts

It only hurts

Everything led up to this

Everything gave room for this

Everything is Darkness

No, you dont understand

 

hollow

The wind says you love me
The moon say you do
When my heart is crying
A soft cloud of your embrace descends on me
i hold you tight, although theres only ashes left
Ashes and memories
i dream and touch your skin again
your colours so vibrant
i want to stay there, in your arms
if this world does not contain you
i want to go to the one that does
as i followed you like a shadow
thats all i am
without anchor, just drifting, hollow

Time cant pass like you did

i cant let you go,
my blood is saturated with grief
it fills my veins fresh with longing for you with each pulsing moment
come back come back come back
the noise drums with repeated explosions in my ears
come back
i hold my breath and its whispering
pain fully slow
come
back
time warps tightly around my neck
come
back
tears stream down my cheeks and
a slow stillness
comes
relief, pain, regret
i cant let go