the ways of walking alone

 relief was breif

i moved south and the comforting blanket of white ran thinner

things buried beneath, the complexities

i cant escape

for as long as you decide, youll be the soil for my seeds

youll be the shades of my darkness

my silent companion casting a curse on every new path that opens up

the ways of wrapping myself in this solitude

his black bitter jealousy 

is my water

in the ways of saying goodbye

 what is this feeling of the first day of snowfall

a pure even layer gently set a mute on all reflections of sound

its so soft, the voice of the world

the calming linear texture

it was a day to say goodbye

tears roll down the back of my eyes

 stars will you carry my thoughts tonight

i have only one for each of you, so it wont be too heavy right?

he took all of them in steady stream for days and days

free flow from every corner

where i had been sitting isolated for so long

now im back in my echochamber 

this asylum with padded locked doors

my tears creep roll to the back of my eyes

im suffocating, drowning from the inside

will someone come and open me up

pain will be brief and only mine

 nothing can beat my heart out of pulse like dark shade if your hair

its the last thing i breathe in at night

my lips so close to your neck and my fingertips

these ones

i cant believe its the same ones

maybe i shifted to a different universe

the pain when it broke shattered time and sent us this far from eachother

i dont fear anything

everytime i see your name i smile nostalgically

as if a ghost, placid and suspended midair

its ok

everything is ok with me

empty shell colliding cannot hurt anything or anyone

my pain will be breif on impact and then it will

finally be over

 i held still for a while before i answered

just to lay in the vulcanic tension of you waiting

you get so angry so fast

but you dont give me any options

weeks of starving, lava feels nice

things buried in the glacier takes a sudden harsh breath

im wide awake, and the demon of you is everywhere

sing

 sing a song for my unheard heart

colder times are approaching

as if prompted by its frosted lining

ice burns on greedy hands

i was wondering, is it all a joke

why dont i feel scared

i just keep searching, as if roam is the singular form

if it was freedom, i would live free

but its a prison, my feet are stone heavy

its a cruel addictiction, a relentless drive

the unstoppable force

remoreseless, indifferent to exhoes that clangs the chambers of my heart

is time speeding up even more. can you feel the thrust as i do?

 change your tone boy, dont give me that deathstare

think deeply about the path ahead