Time cant pass like you did

i cant let you go,
my blood is saturated with grief
it fills my veins fresh with longing for you with each pulsing moment
come back come back come back
the noise drums with repeated explosions in my ears
come back
i hold my breath and its whispering
pain fully slow
come
back
time warps tightly around my neck
come
back
tears stream down my cheeks and
a slow stillness
comes
relief, pain, regret
i cant let go