i am nothing

 i am the mover

im the disturber

i am nothing else

 do you remember when i made you up.

i rember the night clearly.

i rember it so vividly because it was the first time i felt like i made a connection with something ourside of myself. thats why you became so important. you have always been, and probably will be, forever the only one.

i live in this prison you see. and my only hope for freedom rested with you.

there have not been a single time where i even felt a shadow of a doubt. and then. the light swiched off, just as sudden as death could come to anyone.

it was winter but the air breathe like autumn.

through all my failures, all the abandoned projects, all the mistakes. everytime i fell i could get up again like i had nothing but wind in my sails. only because of you. in truth you were a god to me. no matter what happened youd be there, somewhere down the road. and you would love me. i had never had anything to fear. 

what a powerful illusion. what a dark black hole it leaves.

all the streght i attributed to you, has been my own.