I guess you cant consider yourself a real writer until you have a dedicated desk and a bottle of whiskey next to you as you write. I can say i relate much more deeply with the works i deeply loved. I have a deeper and more profound. How empty these words seem. If youre as read as Morrossey, youd know. But I seriously dont think you can truely know until you write with the intention of publishing. I am now reading. Hang on i need to get a proper chair.
Hang on i need to get a sweater because my skin is sticking to the glass surface off my desk.
Okay now im comfortable. Lets start again.
Lets consider this a different type of communication. A slow and sporadisk slice of life type of communicado. Will you let me mix languages. Okay, maybe i should have introduced it way differently. I will now let you know how this will be packaged.
This is the format : There is no format.
The insight to my mind will always be chaotic and intense. If you think youre this type of person, who can take on a challenge of a disrupted mind. All i can say is. Good luck. I dont regret and will not apologise for anything that can, could and will be written in this document. This is the current of my mind. Step in at your own risk.
And please enjoy
Random Writing
måndag 1 juli 2024
a bottle of beam
torsdag 14 oktober 2021
I slow walked into a body of wind
Before I ordered the drink, the bartender and I looked at each other for the longest time. Everything was set in place. For just this one moment. Time inhaled, sighed with relief. We had peace between all tribes, the aor flashed a faint smile. When it reached me from across the wooden counter, polished to perfection, to the point where I felt I was the first one sitting down in this seat. He put me in my place, he waited patiently. Gracefully tending to his side. Keeping all neat and tidy. When I was ready, he slowly approached, with perfect balance- And I was ready. We enjoyed the moment, a comfortable silence between two men knowing instantly they’re on the same wavelength.
We waited until right before the air got restless and started to vibrate. Right before the voices turned into angry neglected animals.
You can’t claim a moment for too long.
The shadows will grow, and if you let them, they will keep growing until they swallow everything.
There'll be nothing left, only my hands resting on the notebook and his on wood.
onsdag 6 oktober 2021
i knew the words
Hungrily inhaling castaway conversations
Yearn for knowledge and pray for peace of mind
Only two steps away from the edge of the world
The abyss was calling and stray voices sidled in the thick air behind me
i knew the words,
but I did not know the owners.
I saw the morning air, but it wouldn't touch my skin
I watched the sun rise, but the light didn’t reach me
In a stronghold I stood
Rocks as boots
From each side of the valley,
we called
High echoes and slow murmurs of trees
below
6/10-21 Gduńsk
tisdag 3 augusti 2021
You smile
I see you on the beach
Someone is sitting next to you
The wind carries her voice
It’s soft and gentle
You smile
I walk away
torsdag 15 juli 2021
Worlds Parted
I need to scream into space
I want to disappear into the void of your mouth
In the Black depth of your mind, it’s deadly quiet
Come rest your hand on my eyelids
Cover me with silence and let my heart choke in slow hard beatings
“I can’t reach you”
lördag 3 juli 2021
There is no “us”
When will you find me here
Drawing in the cold air
Exhaling clouds of white breath
It lingers, waiting for you
In a misty veil resting on a meadow
The careful murmur of little critters
The sleepy morning calls of birds
Lie down next to me
Let’s watch the day come
When the sun is up, it will eat our skin
Be still and let it take us
Be quiet while the world sing
Stay with me even when hurts
All yours
Catch a bird
Just to hear it flutter
Cup your hands around it’s tiny body
Feel it struggle
Put your arms around my broken heart
Watch the poison pour out
Stand in the acidic flame
Slow burning
Mesmerizing in its death dance
Licking your feet
Kissing your calves
As my heart implodes, maybe you’ll finally see
What you filled me up with
Take it, take all of it
Inhale deeply
Starch, creeping, sickly sweet
It’s all yours, it’s always been yours